Beauty is pain, and although that saying if for a completely different context than what I am about to talk about, I figured it appropriate since this week has been one of the most beautiful weeks of my life and at the same time one of the most painful.
A person whom I love dearly really hurt me this week and that situation required me to drop down my own pride and apologize for the wellbeing of the relationship. I'm still hurt about the way in which this information was presented so publicly, but like I said, learning to drop your own pride and apologize even when you are still hurt too is never a bad thing to practice. Plus, it is bringing me to a place of being more confident in who Christ has made me to be. I'm not always going to please man, but for the sake of following Christ, it's a feeling that I'm going to have to get used to.
And all at the same time through that brokenness and pain God has picked me up and showed me life. He has given me so many opportunities to be a good friend to those around me and has revealed to me ways in which I can be more selfless and in tune with the needs of people he has placed in my life. A friend of mine recently broke up with her boyfriend of 2 years and I've made more of an active effort than I would have before to do kind things for her and just be around her when she needs someone. God has given me so many opportunities this week to lower my pride, be there for someone who needs me, and be selfless and giving of things that God has blessed me with.
And only 30 minutes ago I walked back to my room after playing some FIFA, and a teammate of mine just randomly said to me, "Rachel, you're a good friend." That was it. Nothing more. It was so simple and it was just the encouragement that I needed.
The world and my own insecurities put a lot of doubt in my life this week and I fought through it, trusting in God's faithfulness and goodness. He has promised us that when he starts a good work in us, he will not finish it until the return of Christ Jesus. That is the truth I had to rely on so much this week. I truly believe that God prompted my friend to say that to me. I needed that and although I'm so thankful for her gift of encouragement, I'm even more thankful for my God, because my God is a god who provides. Jesus, my soul sings how I love you. Thank you for being such a good and faithful God. Te amo mucho, mi amor. Te amo mucho.
A person whom I love dearly really hurt me this week and that situation required me to drop down my own pride and apologize for the wellbeing of the relationship. I'm still hurt about the way in which this information was presented so publicly, but like I said, learning to drop your own pride and apologize even when you are still hurt too is never a bad thing to practice. Plus, it is bringing me to a place of being more confident in who Christ has made me to be. I'm not always going to please man, but for the sake of following Christ, it's a feeling that I'm going to have to get used to.
And all at the same time through that brokenness and pain God has picked me up and showed me life. He has given me so many opportunities to be a good friend to those around me and has revealed to me ways in which I can be more selfless and in tune with the needs of people he has placed in my life. A friend of mine recently broke up with her boyfriend of 2 years and I've made more of an active effort than I would have before to do kind things for her and just be around her when she needs someone. God has given me so many opportunities this week to lower my pride, be there for someone who needs me, and be selfless and giving of things that God has blessed me with.
And only 30 minutes ago I walked back to my room after playing some FIFA, and a teammate of mine just randomly said to me, "Rachel, you're a good friend." That was it. Nothing more. It was so simple and it was just the encouragement that I needed.
The world and my own insecurities put a lot of doubt in my life this week and I fought through it, trusting in God's faithfulness and goodness. He has promised us that when he starts a good work in us, he will not finish it until the return of Christ Jesus. That is the truth I had to rely on so much this week. I truly believe that God prompted my friend to say that to me. I needed that and although I'm so thankful for her gift of encouragement, I'm even more thankful for my God, because my God is a god who provides. Jesus, my soul sings how I love you. Thank you for being such a good and faithful God. Te amo mucho, mi amor. Te amo mucho.
thank you for sharing the pain and encouragement you have had this week Rachel. You are an inspiration to me.
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