January 1, 2012

It's the first day of the year. I decided to deactivate my facebook account and get a blog instead. For thousands of years people have encountered intimate relationships and close friendships without facebook even when distance was in the equation. I know it's possible but it's going to take work and I'm ready for that. It should be normal for peoples hearts to ache and desire to talk to a dear friend of theirs because they want to know what is going on in his or her life. But because of how readily information is given on facebook to anyone of the 700 friends someone may have, that aching in my life has been diminished. I don't call friends because I already know. I don't text them because they just told me. And I don't write them because its just as easy to send them a message. I'm not doing this to make any one feel guilty for being on facebook, this is just what I need to do to be free from my own hypocracy and become a better friend. My intentions must be pure in my relationship with God and I want to be so in love with Him and thankful for Him in my life that it just pours out from me in constant prayer and the things that I say daily. Posting it on facebook is an encouragement to others, but it can't be about how many "likes" I get. I only need one being to like it and that is God. I've been burdened by the opinions and acceptance of others and I don't want that anymore. I need to free myself from the desire to be accepted and honored by others before it begins to define me. I really want to be more than okay with the approval of God. No one else needs to see. No one needs to know except for God. Because this life...well.... it's all for God.